Rocks in My Head rattling around like ball bearings!!

A Case of Rocks in my head!!

Have you ever done something so dumb, so stupid you actually wonder whether you had rocks in your head, and who put them there? On the odd occasion, I have this terrible habit of pulling some dumb pranks, or worst still you imagine some crazy idea that the world is against you, when in fact that is not what is happening.  You mis-read a situation, over hear part of a conversation and the rocks in your head start to rattle around like ball bearings in a stainless steel dish. An incessant din like the clatter of a pneumatic drill demanding the attention you don’t want to give it. If you are the sort of person who wears their feelings on their cuffs, well the rocks tend to rattle a little more close to the surface.

This time the rocks were rocking, like majorly, a prank that seemed harmless and fun wasn’t, it hurt some people I love, and at that moment I just so wanted the ground open up and swallow me. I probably deserved it really. So this is a personal confession, and an apology.

On the same day I experienced a huge amount of grace. Friends who were instrumental in calming the rocks in my head, bringing about some peace to the imaginations that are most times wrong in the first place, and planted by the devil so that you start second-guessing yourself.

Anyway publically, to those people I hurt and probably made you very angry huge sorryness. (and I know there’s know such word, well there should be!) I’m grateful for grace so undeserved. For you your gift is on it’s way just a token but nevertheless with huge love and appreciation of you for the person you are.

Grace so undeserved,

Friends too precious to name or to loose,

Friends you can never repay,

Wells up in a thankfulness and praise.